First pro win. That has all that has been going through my mind for the last thirteen weeks. Over the course of the last two weeks the feeling and thought has become so strong that there is nothing else I am able to think about. I think this is a wide open field with some great bodybuilders but something outside of the realm of reality is telling me that it is my time. I have been having weird visuals and dreams of the day going my way. I have so much support from everyone around me I feel like there is so much positive energy flowing around me now that it is my turn to step up and take what is mine.
I have worked hard for ten years in bodybuilding and have achieved all of the things I have set my mind to, well this is one more. I have my mind set for the win, so many bodybuilders turn pro and compete and never win a show. I won't be happy with second, top five, top ten, nothing. It is a lot of pressure to put on yourself but sometimes you have to want the ball as they say in other sports. I am ready to take the ball and finish the game.
A lot of things have been thrown my way this offseason and precontest prep and I am still dealing with them. I have dealt with more injuries this year than any year in my career. I have dealt with relationship issues, financial issues and friends family illnesses. All of these things I feel have been a test for me, like someone saying if you persevere you will be rewarded. Well, I have persevered and have gone through all the shit and I am still here without deterrence. The show is around the corner and nothing will stop me from showing up in the best shape of my life and earning my spot at the top.
Things are also on the rise career wise. I am filming a week in the life installment with MD the biggest baddest magazine in bodybuilding and also have a shoot setup with them post show so look for me there. It is nice to see that the premier bodybuilding mag has noticed my efforts and only drives the message of hard work home even harder in my own mind. Work hard and things will come your way, its all a matter of time, dedication and sacrifice. Who knows, if all goes well with the next couple shows you might be seeing me in the pages of MD for a long time...
On a more humorous note I have to let you know how crazy I have become about food. Every year I usually make a list of foods to eat after the show, I think lots of bodybuilders do this so its not big deal. This year I decided I wasn't going to because I have grown out of it....so I thought. It started one day last week when I was watching a show about the best sandwiches in the USA. There is a restaurant near my house that supposedly has the best grilled cheese in the USA..mmmmmm grillllled cheeessee...lol. So I made a point of putting that into my phone as a place to go after the show. Since that one entry I have added about eight different restaurants and twenty three different foods...lol. And by the way, does anyone else notice that Dairy Queen has a commercial on every channel at least every twenty minutes and has come out with three new Blizzard's in the last three months. Jeez, I can't get away from them, needless to say they are on the list. I also noticed that my junk mail is ninety percent fast food coupons and flyer's. Its ok though, I have them all saved in a drawer and I think I am going to attack them all day one day...don't tell my nutritionist though, he'd beat my ass..lol.
For some reason training is still insane. I can't believe it and I am seriously dumbfounded by the amount of weight I am able to still lift eight days out. I am still front squatting, barbell rowing and incline pressing 405lbs. Some of my other lifts are actually heavier now than in the offseason, very strange. I am not complaining by any means and am very happy with the way my body is holding up. I really think it will translate to a different look on stage this year. I believe it will give me a denser fuller look that I have never had before.
Well, I think that's all for now. I am gonna try and get a nap in because as most of you know from past blogs sleep is a hot commodity right now. Before I go I thought I would also let you guys know I am still eating at least 4000cals a day, still all whole food consisting of steak, chicken, fish, oatmeal, brown rice and sweet potato. I love it, I'm eating like a pig but my glutes are more striated now than they were onstage last year!
Sacrifice Without Regret,
Fouad 'Hoss' Abiad
